Devastation

I can't blog about the usual today, as I am dealing with another issue that has been coming to a head over the past few days. That issue is Steve. Years and years of psych facilities, and numerous drug rehabs, and it just doesn't get any better. As some of you know, but most probably don't, Steve was diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 15. He has refused treatment all these years, and is, once again, spiraling out of control, and as usual, taking us all with him. After an entire week of verbal attacks and abuse by Steve, I have decided it is time to close the door. That means I am choosing to walk away from not only Steve, but my grandkids as well, as he will withhold them from me. This is a choice that I did not make lightly. It has been 15 years in the making, and it's time. All of Steve's rage has always been directed at me, but his new salvo of rage has been devastating. I need to take a few days to decompress and grieve the loss of my son and grandkids. At some point in the future, I may be able to explain what has gone on recently, but for now I simply can not. I'll be back in the blogosphere when I am able. Until then, I love you all.